Hi guys! Welcome back to my channel. Or if you’re new here then welcome. My name is Mhairi. If you are d/Deaf or hard of hearing or if you just have difficulty understanding what I’m saying Then go ahead and click the close caption button. I caption all my videos for that exact purpose For today’s video I wanted to talk about something that a couple of people have been asking me about recently And that is why I started wearing my hearing aids again So I’m just going to jump right in to it I stopped wearing my hearing aids at the beginning of last year And I didn’t wear them again up until, around the middle of August last year And The reason that I started wearing them again is pretty simple We found out in July, last year that my mum had terminal cancer of the pancreas And At first not wearing my hearing aids was alright because things were still Very slow moving. There wasn’t a whole lot of appointments or chemo or anything like that But then In the middle of August my grandfather passed away unexpectedly And I decided that I wanted to wear my hearing aids to the funeral just so that I could follow what was being said at his funeral and also so that I could communicate with family members that I maybe hadn’t seen for quite a while And I fully intended, after the funeral, to go back to not wearing them at all And Then, unfortunately, about a week later my mum had a fit and she had to be sent in to hospital Obviously this was a very scary time and there was a lot going on And I started to become quite worried that I was missing important information from the nurses and the doctors So When I went to visit my mum in the hospital. Which was quite a lot I started wearing my hearing aids. Just to make sure that I wasn’t missing anything that I really needed to know And we had quite a few meetings with the nurses and the doctors and the people from the Macmillan Cancer centre And For the most part I was pretty glad that I could follow along what was happening without any difficulty So bear in mind that everybody in my family was kind of wrapped up in what was happening with my mum It just did not seem like the right time to be trying to teach them sign language Which was what I had been doing before when I wasn’t wearing my hearing aids I was kind of slowly introducing my family to sign language while I was still learning it myself With my husband And Then all this happened. Everybody’s Schedules and lives just blew up and it just Seemed like a really bad time to be focusing on that rather than on what was happening with my mum And my mum was in hospital for quite a while So Obviously because I had decided to start wearing my hearing aids and I was going to be visiting her a lot In the hospital. It kind of became just part of my routine again to just get up and put them in and go And then just after my mum left the hospital she began her chemotherapy And I was the only one out of my siblings that was available on the days that she was going in for chemo So I would get the train down and then get a bus to the hospital And sit with her during her chemotherapy And I would wear my hearing aids for that but I would only wear them for the chemotherapy I wouldn’t wear them on the train or I feel like I just heard something Don’t know what that was hoping it’s stopped I- I wouldn’t wear them on the train and I wouldn’t wear them on the bus I would literally take them in my bag and put them in once I got there Anyway fast forward a couple of months and my mum was back in the hospital And then sadly a few weeks later she passed away in the hospital And after that obviously came the planning the funeral, the registering the death And the sorting out all of my mum’s stuff between family members and deciding who took what And by this point I had now been wearing my hearing aids again for around 3 months And there was plus sides and negative sides to it The plus side obviously being that I could follow what was happening And that I wasn’t relying on my limited knowledge of sign language To get me by And on the limited knowledge of sign language that I’d passed on to other people to get me by But on the negative side was the whole reason that I gave them up in the first place Which is the fact that the- I still have eczema and psoriasis And it’s still very painful if I wear them for too long But I have been able to cope because I do only tend to have them in for like a couple of hours a day at the most I think the longest that I wore them would be when I was visiting my mum and we were there for like 4 or 5 hours Or something but the minute I got home I would always take them out Or if, like I said, I was getting the train back home I would take them out Erm When I left the hospital I want to say that I am still determined that there is going to come a point in my life when I don’t have to rely on my hearing aids at all The months that I did go without them last year were really eye opening and really beneficial to me But I feel like in order to be able to do that I should really get a better knowledge of sign language And My Sign language learning obviously took a bit of a backstep with everything that was happening And all the chaos that was going on in my family So I recently started learning again. My husband and I are working on that And I am going to continue to teach my family;y sign language and just gradually build it up until they become At least Until they at least reach a level that They can communicate to some extent with me I don’t wear them all the time. Just to make that very clear When I’m at home like right now I just don’t wear them I don’t wear them when I walk my dog. I don’t wear them when I nip to the local shop to get food Half the time I don’t even wear them when I go to the chemist to get my medication It’s really just a case of if I’m going to be around people that don’t have a basic grasp on sign language Which, unfortunately for me is quite a lot of people in my life But, like I said, I’m working on that So I hope you guys enjoyed this video and it explained, to some extent, why I am wearing my hearing aids again I will link the video from before where I talked about giving my hearing aids up In the description box below I think I’ve already said that to you guys But yeah that’s where it’ll be And I still agree very much with what I said in that video and with all the positives that came with it I just need to focus on learning more sign language and getting back in to a groove with sign language before I can feel comfortable enough to take my hearing aids out and just be my deaf self again If you have any questions then please do put them in the comments section below. I’ll try and answer the best I can And thank you very much for watching this video guys and I will see you in my next video. Bye!