Hi guys. It’s been ages since I’ve done any kind of filming. I’ve been busy behind the scenes pretending to do important stuff – probably! But I thought it was really important for me to do a vlog today Because yesterday I went to go and get some new hearing aids. I haven’t had any new hearing aids for absolutely ages. Years probably now – maybe about 3 or 4 years – too long. And my hearing loss has dropped and I was told that my hearing aids were obsolete and I had to go and get new ones. I was really excited about it. I was thinking yes great and they said I could choose the colour of my hearing aids. And I chose pink – obviously – as I’m sure you can tell I’m so girly. So, here they are. They are very small. and they are pink! Anyway, so I went along yesterday feeling excited and I, you know they put these hearing aids on and you’re all wired up to the computer and I completely and utterly forgot what an emotional experience, and actually, what a horrible experience it is. And the reason it felt quite emotional and horrible because the sound was so weird to my brain It was just too loud, too distorted. And the mould that they had given me are bigger as my hearing loss has dropped so I could hear my own voice. And I got really quite tearful actually and it took me back to being a child and I was in there for about an hour and all I was thinking was “I don’t want to wear these”. As soon as I get out I’m going to put my old hearing aids back on. I hate these. I like the fact that they are pink but that’s about it. Hence I’m wearing my glasses at the moment because I’m getting such bad headaches. But I have persevered and I have been keeping them on And I came home and I freaked out because I could hear the fridge! I didn’t know the fridge made a noise! and then I had my daughter in the back of the car and I suddenly thought “Oh my god, what’s that noise?” and it was her breathing. She has got a cold. But yes, it’s a really strange thing. Hearing noises for the first time. Its not an amazing, empowering thing. It’s freaky. And it’s given me a headache. And I’m just not sure what’s going on around me. I feel really disorientated. I know that it’s about persevering and I know I need to stick with it. But it was a real stark reminder for me for everybody else out there who is getting hearing aids for the first time or is changing their hearing aids or cochlear implants it’s difficult and you need to stick with it and just talk about it and be there to support each other because you just forget what an emotional experience it can be. And how draining. Anyway, I wil keep you updated with the success of the pink hearing aids! Thanks guys! Bye!